3 am.

It's 3 am and I just feel so fucking MAD!!! I feel like screaming till my lungs lose function. And i feel like giving up. Oh god, i really gotta stop thinking things. I mean, sometimes i just feel like i wanna pull a Heath Ledger. Fuck fuck fuck. I need a smoke. And i guess i gotta start taking those pills again. I keep skipping 'em. And i heard skipping them is really really really bad for my body. Messes up my system. So i gotta start taking 'em regularly. But then again, i need to go have a fix. Now! So, later.

fuck this.

27 October

Found some old pics. Thought i'd blog 'em.

Well, aan just got back from Bandung. He was good enough to remember to buy some tees for us.
He bought a Rolling Stones shirt, i can't remember the other one, and three Baby Milo's. Haha. Well, clearly i rushed for the Stones shirt. Kest took the one i can't remember and ekey,shay, and adib took the milo's. Heh. Sorry guys. But aan, really, thank you for the shirts. And i'll say that for the rest too. God bless you! >_< Other than that, that day was just pretty much usual. Hung out. Went to mapley. And back to ekey's place and just chilled till around 5. Then we'd hit for the beds. To avoid the sun. Haha. Here are some pics.



just a typical day.

Seifer

I never had the wits to say it in person. But i'm sorry for your loss syahir.
But here's something i thought you should have.

Rest in peace kid.

he was my favourite.

I'm Not Your Typical Good Kid

Anyone ever heard of Killing in the name?
Well, the other day my parents pissed me off.
And they're the only people in this world that could make me that pissed.
Anyhow, afterwards, i played this song out loud. I love the last chorus. Haha.

Rage Against The Machine - Killing In The Name

fuck you i won't do what you tell me!! >_<

Getting Shit Together. Again. -_-"

Well, i finally got the chance or should i say, got into the situation where i have to make something of myself. In an instant i just go, "hei, i've got shit to do."

So, to make things easier i shall do a list. THE list of things to do.
Eventhough it won't be as long as Di's incredible literate work of "The Top 100 Things I'd Do If I Ever Became An Evil Overlord", i'm still determined of writing. :I

12 Things To Do This Next Few Months

1. Start sketching again. Anything, as long as it's something drawn. Preferably charcoal on paper. Cause i said sketch, not paint. :I ( i suck with colors btw.)

2. Learn about t-shirt making from Lyn. Because i wanna have something to do in my freetime, and make money at the same time. :D
3. Update my mp3 playlist. Because all the songs i have now is starting to bore me. Well, repetitiveness tends to do that.
4. Get ready for MMU's Art Market in April. Maybe some t-shirts by then. Or some sketches to be up for sale.
5. Grow my hair. Yes, i shall GROW it. :I
6. Practice the piano. At first I wanted to try out the saxophone but heck, I can’t afford one. >_> not yet that is. :D
7. Start working out and jog again. Gotta balance out the nics, cafs and greens. xI
8. Get rid of the x-filter my parents installed that is making the pc fucking slow.
9. Take out all my albums and data out of the pc so i can format the bloody thing.
10. Read the driving license book. And try to pass the pc test. :I
11. Get through that Starbucks interview.
12. Wait for you.

di's longest blog. = link